I'm watching you with your eyes wide awake in your swing, fighting your sleep. You are wearing a blue, long sleeved, footsie, onesie with jungle animals printed all over it that Coral gave you in the hospital when you were born. You are kicking your feet and punching your arms and making random whiny "ah" sound. You have been up since about 8:30 this morning and spent all day playing with daddy until mommy could get home to see you!
I'm saying all of this because its a picture I want to remember. Even though I'm dead tired and I would love nothing more than for my head to hit the pillow, I can't sleep either.
You are so precious and so loved. I prayed over you tonight for God to move in your life and for you to witness his grace and love daily. I prayed for God to shield your heart and your eyes from this world. It is not the same place from when I was a little girl. I prayed that while I know that you have to grow up, you will always show your father and me respect and not be embarrassed by us, but remember that we will always have your best interest at heart. I look at you and thank God that I got to witness a miracle. I got to help bring a precious and beautiful life in to this world! You are so important and so valuable, I will tell you everyday how loved you are!
The other night I was putting away your newborn clothes and sobbing. You will be 3 months old next week. I can't believe how fast time is going by. Before I know it, I will have to share you with the love of your life. I'm already praying for that person. In life, we accept the love that we think we deserve. Remember this when dating and looking for "the one." God is working on your soulmate daily and when the moment is right for both of you, God will ordain that special time and place and you will know.
This is still far in to the future, but this is just an example of what I think about when I look at your beautiful, chubby face and love, loving you!
You are my son and you will always be my most precious gift.
