“I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish He didn't trust me so much.”
-Mother Teresa
Even though I am not Catholic, Mother Teresa's words reign true for me.
My whole life, God has been there with me, every step of the way. In fact, sometimes I look back and try to find a time when He wasn't there, but I know that even in my most difficult situations, He had His fingerprint on me.
I graduate from college in less than 5 weeks with my teaching degree, and I can not wait to get in to my very own classroom and start loving on my students. I always knew that whatever I was going through in life, that it would be for a purpose. I see students everyday in the hallways and I can literally feel their pain. I want to pull them aside and talk to them. I really want to get to know them and share their burdens. I want them to know that God is love and that He loves them.
It's a little lame, I know, but there is a KJ-52 song called Right Here. In the song, there are some lyrics that say...
I cant say that I know just what you're dealing with
But it's so plain that it shows just what your feelings is
But I suppose that your pain that you're living with
It comes and goes and fills your mind now with hopelessness
But I know someone who comes with life to give
And His love is the reason why my life can live
Just one touch is all you're needing 'Cause He died to give you so much but you can't see 'cause you struggle with
So many things up in your life you're frustrated with
Nothing seems to be going right I know you're hating it
But let me tell you see I've been through what you experienced
And I've come to see the source of who my healing is
If it's divorce or anything else making it hard to live
I gotta tell you you can make it just through all of this
'Cause everywhere you go He's there for you it's obvious
Don't be scared no more
This is a message I want to stress to my students. When I see them walking through the door with the weight of the world on their little shoulders and with a tired look in their eyes because they haven't slept since last weekend, I weep for them. I want them to see God's love. I know that some of them have Christian parents or Christian relatives, but for those who don't and see no light at the end of the tunnel for them, I want to be God's light. I know that I have gone though everything I have so that I can literally say to my students, I know what you are going through. I know that God can trust me with His precious children. I make it my mission every day to walk in to that classroom with my own personal troubles behind me and to focus on the lives of the kids. I want them to remember me as a person they can go to with their problems and I will be there for them, even 20 years after they graduate. I want them to know that teaching is not a career choice, but a lifestyle. I was born a teacher, and re-born as a Christian. I have experienced God's love and grace and I know that no matter how heavy the load, God will only give me what I can handle...and if my life has taught me anything, it's that God trusts me with a lot.
