There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love1 John 4:18

This last friday when I went to the Good Friday service, this scripture was laid on my heart. The pastor started talking about how Jesus was on the cross, and the people mocked Him. They told Him that if He was the son of God then he should send angels down from Heaven to help him down, but he didn't.

Now that I am about to be a Senior in college, I have so many fears. I fear that I won't graduate, and even if I do, I'm going to school to be a teacher, so will there even be a job for me?
There are so many other fears, but I know that they are pointless.

I keep telling myself, why would God keep me in school and make it possible for me to go every semester and graduate if it wasn't His intention for me to be a teacher? Why would I have so much passion and love for kids if I wasn't meant to be a teacher.

I fear failure for my future life and I fear the possiblity of not being a good parent. I fear not being the perfect wife and just not being the perfect person.

I know that these things are ridiculous, and that I should never have that much fear. If fear is in my heart and overtaking it, then how can I let love in? The Bible specifically says that we should not fear, and I realized that it is because if we have fear in our hearts, then we can not have love in our hearts.

Through writing this blog and just taking time to listen and clear my mind, I have realized so much about myself. I can tell that I have a lot to change and a lot to grow in. I know that I still have much more growing to do, more patience to learn, and more love to give.